You ever have one of those days when your at home with the kids and all you want to do is just scream really loud and lock yourself in the bathroom for just freaking 5 minutes? Today is that kind of day for me. It’s spring break this week, and just as any other stay at home mom, they are feeling just about the same right now. Kids running around wild, yelling that they are bored and have nothing to do, or sitting on their ipads deep in whatever you tube, game or show they are into. I don’t remember that far back to when we were little with our spring breaks from school, but i’m pretty sure that I annoyed the hell out of my mom as well. lol.
I read something the other day as I was scrolling through facebook, probably while trying to get in at least 5 mins in the bathroom, about an article on moms, on how hard we are on ourselves when we aren’t the perfect parent. How emotionally we make ourselves in our own brain that after a while we get consumed with all the anxiety on our “what if’s” and “should I have?” This definitely hit home for me when I read this…
“To the mom hiding in her bathroom, needing peace for just one minute, as the tears roll down her cheeks..
To the mom who is so tired she feel likes she can’t function anymore and would do anything to lay down and get the rest she needs…
To the mom sitting in her car, alone, stuffing food in her face because she doesn’t want anyone else to see or know she eats that stuff…
To the mom crying on the couch after she yelled at her kids for something little and is now feeling guilty and like she is unworthy…
To the mom that is trying desperately to put those old jeans on because all she really wants is to look in the mirror and feel good about herself…
To the mom that doesn’t want to leave the house because life is just too much to handle right now…
To the mom that is calling out for pizza again because dinner just didn’t happen the way she wanted it to…
To the mom that feels alone, whether in a room by herself or standing in a crowd…
You are enough.
You are important.
You are worthy.
This is a phase of life for us. This is a really really hard, challenging, crazy phase of life.
In the end it will all be worth it. But for now it’s hard. And it’s hard for so many of us in many different ways. We don’t always talk about it, but it’s hard and it’s not just you.
You are enough.
You are doing your best.
Those little eyes that look up at you – they think you are perfect. They think you are more than enough.
Those little hands that reach out to hold you – they think you are the strongest. They think you can conquer the world.
Those little mouths eating the food you gave them – they think that you are the best because their bellies are full.
Those little hearts that reach out to touch yours – they don’t want anything more. They just want you.
Because you are enough. You are more than enough, mama.
You. Are. Amazing.”
We love our children, don’t get me wrong, but sometimes, it gets really hard. And even harder for those single parents trying to raise their kids as well. I’ve been apart of both worlds, recently having to take care of my 2 kids while my husband worked in California for 3 months. Good thing I am able to stay at home and be there, but I couldn’t imagine having to work full time and take care of the kids. I’ll tell you what, the house did not get cleaned as much as it needed too. I made sure dishes were done usually because I just cannot see them piled up, but everything else, didn’t matter to me. I was exhausted and just worn out. Mad props to you single parents rocking it every day! No one tells you the hard parts of raising children. Why? Because honestly, the good times you have raising those children are the ones that you remember the most, and what you live for to see. I love watching my 2 play together without one another yelling at the other for the toy they both wanna play with. Or when big brother says ” I love you Izzy” to his little sister just randomly for no reason, that’s what melts my heart and make me think, this is why I wanted to have kids. Seeing that is amazing.
I know that it’s not going to get any easier either. Trust me, I wasn’t the greatest teenager growing up and I can only imagine how mine will be, but I will get through it just like I am getting through it now, by screaming, locking myself in bathrooms, and venting on blog pages, lol just joking, kind of.
I can just take each day one at a time and enjoy what I have right in front of me, even if it’s stressful and kids yelling at each other, because it’s my family, and I love them